We moved to this house about 3 years ago and have joined 4h’s, youth groups, music lessons, homeschoolers co-op, even baby sitting and nothing sticks! I still always say the nicest things,sometimes I stand up for myself but usally just take the sht! But I’m putting that blame on to her and I don’t mean to I love her to pieces but even if we go to her familys it’s like there’s no communication and I’m sat there’s bored out my head I keep constantly getting headaches because I feel like I’m not enough or doing anything Wright. Previous ‘friends’ would ignore me unless they needed something so I don’t make friends, I don’t socialize, I spend most days inside watching Television 24\7 and trying to seek my flaws. Why is this happening? Oh I didn’t see you there you scared me! My family see me as a problem , now I am at uni , it’s like they want me to stay and never darken their doorstep again , I am doing ver well at uni , but I am so lonely soo lonely , this can’t be normal . And I don’t really want to know you or anyone in particular.

My depression and social anxiety is normal now.

This is not to say indecisive people are incapable of relationships by any means, but if you're enjoying the single life and are non-committal, then why force a relationship?

I am careful not to dominate but if I speak even three words, someone will always interrupt me and it is as if I am just a ghost nobody notices. The TIA’s are causing some confusion.Thanks for letting me vent. I have suffered greatly (mostly mental) from B1 deficiency…and know I have a long time recovery after 54 years of more and more suffering from insecurity and anxiety and fear and depression and anger, etc.

I just find I don’t really care about that anymore.

They want you to just shut up.” It’s important to get a hold on what situations trigger your critical inner voice and what that voice is saying to you in those moments.

Going through the steps of voice therapy with a trained therapist can have significant benefits.
I’ve read lots of articles, but most feel kind of preachy. I sometimes cry uncontrollably when I feel hurt, but I do not understand the source of my pain.I really do not try and pursue relationships because I know they will end horribly.
even though they’re rare. You just cant make others care for you and like you or love you unconditionally from heart…you may be most brightest generous charming successful but you cant make others like you…being liked and loved is a gift ,it cant be achieved, It’s not that everyone ignores me (sometimes it feels that way too though) it’s just the fact that I NEVER go out and am stir crazy everyday (I’m home-schooled) it sucks because my parents are such homebodies it’s sickining, even with my sister driving she doesn’t go anywhere ever!! Everyone I meet dislikes me eventually. I could have written that myself. Then they tell me I need to forgive & say why would anyone like me, what have I done to make anyone like me. I look up in the night sky sometimes and pick out a star and wonder “Is that where I’m supposed to be? My colleagues are like that. You’re better than the problems, but no one wants you to be better. Yes, some women, too, enjoy no strings attached sex. I have a BFF from my home town (mind you we only see Eachother once a year for a week) that I love to death but she’s always talking about how many guys have asked her out and how many friends she has (she’s not bragging tho btw she’s a super nice person) and I have NOTHING to tell her, no guy has ever asked me out, or been intrested It wasn’t until I was in my late 20’s that I managed to get my head around if I was or wasn’t entitled to consider myself ‘disabled’ and until I had problems with one of my feet, (leading to it being amputated) that I felt I was ‘disabled’. As an exercise, write down your critical inner voices as “I” statements, i.e. Once you’ve identified them, it’s essential to challenge the behaviors dictated by your inner critic in order to go after what you want in life. I also feel utterly alone and unlikable. It’s worth a try. It don’t know why but there are just times when I, for no particular reason at all, feel like no one likes me or wants to be around me.